Supersize vs superskinny is so thinspiring!

Ate about 1200 cals today urgh I feel so bad, realised that I get too hungry in the morning so I'll begin having breakfast in the morning and then lunch and then the end :) didn't stick to my exercise plan, I just hate exercise so much. I just realise that I wanna eat less and become skinny in a week when actually it'll take about a month before I lose serious weight and a couple weeks after that before I actually become skinny. I just want it so fast and badly.
Xx tips?

Alls good in food world but not in love world

He thinks my friend is fit and flirts with her all the time. I need this to stop. I need to get over him if he's gonna like both of us what's the point. What I hate is The facts that she's not my close friend so I can't really tell her what to do urghh.
Baked beans on toast was my first and last meal today. In back on track and going good. Hopefully I will bE thin enough for work experience in 4 weeks. Hopefully I will be skinnny.

Wish me luck x

Surprisingly no hungry today

I managed to eat a sandwich for lunch and sone cheesy pasta for dinner today. I am so proud of myself for this great achievement :) if I continue like this in a month I should weigh 110 pounds which is 50kg so I have a month to lose 5kg hopefully I can do it. I have no idea why I'm not hungry today but I'm so excited!
Anywhoo the thinspo on my phone is really thinspiring so i recommend you all to get thinspo somewhere you look everyday. I'm off to sleep now so goodnight stay bright xx

So happy

I'm so happy I got this iPhone, I can upload thinspo pics on my phone with no one knowing.
I can post when I'm out and about which is good so expect more posts from me :)
I've been doing good so far and I just wanna tell all you guys keep going, if your under 120 then don't keep going but don't let food destroy your body
, If you want it to change. Make ot change
This is the easy as well as hard option, easy because all you have to do is little to no food at all an the hard part is cravings ;( water water water!

Xxx

The rapture? more like the end of my sadness.

so i got an iPhone yesterday for FREE! (don't ask why, long story)

I'm downloading iTunes and i have noticed it takes HOURS AND DAYS to download this dam thing! its ever so annoying! i really just wanna start downloading apps and shizz and get music on it but nooo, itunes has to be a slow bitch!
sorry frr the rant.
lets talk about what has been on all or minds, well on my mind.

                                            The Rapture

me being a christian myself i can tell you its all a bunch of bull, some Christians are just so religious! and think they can predict things that isn't even supposed to be predicted by us, like the end of the world. only God knows, its written clearly in the bible that not even Jesus knows when the time will come. so how can some 40 year old, skinhead old dude tell us he knows!
I'll stop now since most of you are probably not christian so theres no point in me talking about this x) but i like ranting.

it was non uniform today and i looked nice, so did other people, but all the attention was on my friend who's little big bum was 'enhanced' in her leggings and she also wore hazel contacts so everyone ( a lot of boys) were on that!

on me now. I've done well. only lunch and sipping water throughout the day. on Monday I'm starting some exercise, even though i hate exercises it will make me lose the weight quicker. so yeahh. thanks for reading. love you all! xxx

I.. Must..Not..Eat

912 so far. that baguette in the kitchen is screaming my name, but with 150 calories. i can't take the risk. i need to keep occupied. i don't know if i can do this :S

here's something I've been using since today, this workout burns 280 calories, unfo i can't do it right now cause i got visitors. hope you guys can do this with me :)

 workout plan

time (min.)    what to do             RPE * (1-10)

  0-2        march in place                 3
  2-4        jumping jacks                  4
  4-5        speed skater                 5-6
  5-7        jump rope                      7
  7-8        crunches                       5
  8-9        jump rope                      7
9-14        repeat minutes 4-9           5-7
14-15        squats                         5
15-17        jump rope                      7
17-18        push-ups                       5
18-20        jump rope                      7
20-26        repeat minutes 14-20         5-7
26-28        jumping jacks                  4
28-30        march in place                 3

Good and bad.

I've been doing good and bad, I've noticed that I've lost a bit of weight, just the tiniest bit. i can see it in my thighs which i hate the most. but I've not really been having 1 meal a day which i really hope to get one day. at least I've lost weight. food will not take over my life.

but i need advice- I'm not used to fasting and restricting so if you're a pro at this please tell me, when you first start fasting or restricting and you get hungry, what can you do so that, that hunger fades, cause when i am hungry i go really hungry and i really wanna know how to suffice it in the beginning of a fast. thanks guys :)

tomorrow i will attempt one meal only. please encourage me ;) thanks xxxxx

ps, ive checked this for spelling mistakes and the amount of times i've said I've! LOOOL

Been slacking..

But back to business today

691 is my total, the sandwich i had at lunch was 439, 439!!!

I think he likes me, but he likes his girlfriend also. shall i just pretend he doesn't have one instead of complicating things?

stay strong x

What is going on with me!

these few days food has been the last of my worries, normally if I'm feeling peckish i just eat loads but these days I'm not hungry even though i haven't even properly tried to fast. today at lunch at school i halved my sandwich and all my friends were surprised cause normally I'd eat it all! wow. I'm so happy, I'm just going to have my last meal which is two bacon sandwiches and then that's 688 calories today :)
very proud!
xxxx

wohooo!

I did so well today i woke up really late and missed breakfast, lunch AND dinner. so late in the evening i had some chicken with a a quarter of a banana smoothie and that's it, gosh I'm so happy!
so i converted my 56gk into lbs and i am 123lbs. which is healthy, but i want to go down to 115 which is 52kg :D I'm not far off :)
I'm scrapping my fast cause its hard to fast during the holidays and I'm sticking to a meal a day and we'll see how that goes.

stay strong :) x

Update on my Liquid Fast.

My liquid fast didn't really stay liquid or fast at all. but the good news is that i just had 400 calories in total from my first and last meal which was microwaved popcorn.

don't really have much to say apart from that i'm very proud of myself because i was going to binge beore i was struck with really bad stomach pains which resulted in me being the opposite of bunged up, lets say im too loose and i'm weeing from behind. god thats so gross!
but yeah i;ve completely lost my appetite which is good :) hopefully i will still have no apetite tomorrow and try to have a complete liquid fast, if not then under 500 cals will be the limit tomorrow. thanks all

staystrong xx heres some thinspo

                                                   shanae Grimes - 90210 star (my fave show)
                                                 she keeps being called to skinny but i think her body is perfect
                                                wow.

                                                        a random skinny model, i love her thighs
                                                          i really want thin thighs so most of my thinspo
                                                          is thin thighs XD

                                            kate moss' legs are phoawwrr!

                                        don't know them but i think the girl on the far right is too skinny
                                       i'd love to have legs like the girl on the far left :)

xxxxxxxx

It's not my fault...

I've not been posting, its because i had no Internet connection at my house and whenever i went round to someones house who did i was surrounded by people so i couldn't post.
I've not been doing well since its the school holidays Ive been bingeing a lot but tomorrow i will start my two day liquid fast. my first ever fast and it will be tough since I'll be at home all day but I'll try my best.
i also came across a new tip for fighting cravings and sufficing your hunger:

VASELINE

yep you heard, Vaseline - basically one day i was proper hungry and i just dipped my finger in some plain Vaseline and ate some and after a few of them i wasn't hungry anymore, it really works and it isn't bad for you as long as you don't eat too much and plus it doesn't taste bad or taste of anything for that matter.
so there you gooo.

I'm very scared for my liquid fast but I'll try my best. here's my plan-

• have a glass of water every hour! this will stop me feeling hungry
• just have squash, water or water with lemon juice
• if forced to eat i will NOT finish my plate

and that's the three golden rules. its baby steps for me so hopefully if these two days go well i can go to three days and four and maybe even a week! thanks for your support and thanks for my new followers!

stay strong xx

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to answer your questions...

i don't have a scale so i don't know how much i currently weigh but the last time i weighed myself i was 56kg and I'm pretty much the same as that to be honest

its not me in that green dress on the right btw :( even though i totally wish it was, if i was like her i wouldn't be making this blog XD

my goal weight is 49kg or 50kg, this is all a kick start into losing weight quick and then staying healthy and thin and try to eat normal again and stop starving etc. im not anorexic i have no EDNOs whatsoever.

thanks for you kind comments by the way :) im sad the pizza went over 800 cals btw hahaha :) xx

Everytime I try, you go and buy more food.

The title says it all- the day i try my best my mum buys pizza, PIZZA! i had 3 slices so far.
i had a prawn mayonnaise sandwich for lunch and 3 pizza slices for dinner? does that exceed 800 cals? someone please comment and tell me. because the pizza is my last meal and i really hope its not over 800 :D

been a good day anyway. don't have much to say. mocks all week and I've failed them all with silly mistakes says my brain. so my RE teacher will kill me. ahh well. only mocks.

cya later babies! xx

Hey i'm good!

Hey ya'll! I'm so excited right now and really happy i have no idea why. okay i do
well i've been having really low self esteem lately because i think I'm ugly. yeah but then these couple of days boys have been flirting with me, staring at me, holding my hands and it feels great! one of my exes even like came really close to my and hugged me sensually, then he told me he wants his dick in my mouth which is really really wrong but i like the attention I've been getting from boys because it brings my low self esteem back up :)

*for those nosey people who want to know I'm a virgin because i believe in no sex before marriage and i haven't been involved in any other sexual activities*

anyways so i had a sandwich and a pizza slice so far, I've quit being obsessed with counting calories because it annoys me! but that pizza was my last meal so i know I've not gone over 800. I'm sticking to this because in June when i have my GCSE'S (I've been having mocks all week) i wanna be in a skirt and fluff around near my ex. and make him go ooooo!
it will take me about a month to become skinny and i can;t wait. two meals a day and I'll be there!
love you all and be happy <3

Hmmm

sorry i haven't been posting. my birthday in Friday was off the hook! i ate loads and loads. and had a lil binge today, i scrapped my plan because it wasn't working out, i can't avoid carbs, carbs is all i eat.

so maybe i can have a sandwich for lunch and and egg for dinner or something, all i know is i only wanna eat 2 meals a day.
Ive put on weight!!!! because of all this binging starving binging, ugh i hate it, i just wanna wash all this fat off. seeing all these girl getting their skirts on for the summer and me hiding behind some trousers. my skirt is probably all dusty now.

starting fro tomorrow i will have 2 meals a day and i will stick to this plan this time, its time to get serious. lets stop the envy and stop the dreaming. actions speak louder than words. let me be thin!

i will post and tell you how I'm doing. thanks for sticking by me guys even though I'm horrible at sticking to things. but here's some thinspo:

xx

Join me ladies!

I've been doing badly lately so i set up a plan for myself. i will only eat 2 meals a day. a sandwhich or pizza at lunch and then potato salad for dinner, small servings only. JOIN ME LADIES.
something strange happened though, we're doing this work on healthy eating and one of the sections was undereating and we had to write down all the long term effects of undereating and anorexia. it was scary. again i'm not anorexic, but i am undereating. hopefully i will lose weight quick and keep it off the healthy way. i don't wanna die.

school was a bore, my best friedn was off today and i'm not really as close to my other 2 friends that much so it was really boring.

anywhoo i'm trying to avoid carbs and failing since carbs is all i ever eat at school and at home, some of you know my fave food is pasta, rice, sandwiches and more carbs. i need to cut them out completely. but it will take time, but i'll let you know about my program on this new plan and hopefully i stick to it. my birthday on friday, YESSS but theres gonna be alcohol and loadsa snacks. but i will make up for it.

bye bye girls! xxx

Could bad mean good also?

I'm feeling VERY ill today, very. which is a bad thing of course. this might sound crazy but the good thing about being ill is that i lose my appetite. i haven't eaten anything so far which is good. i'm hoping that i could make this a fasting day or i could just eat a peanut butter sandwich later on.
wohoooo, watch me burn that fat girls!

I'm sorry but i do have good news!

for not posting in a while, i just didn't wanna tell you guys how bad I've been doing :(
reaaaly bad. today's going good, I'm on 681 and that was gonna be my final total, til my mum dropped a bombshell- she's taking us (me and my sisters) to McDonald's in about 20 mins. and i cannot just sit there and not eat. great. i calculated how many calories my final would be if i go to mcds and its ONE THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED AND FIVE!!! unbelievable.

i do have good news however, I'm losing weight, even though I've done so shit these days i guess my weird eating habits are actually working. i know this because my school trousers are starting to slightly slip down. wohoo! i don't really notice it when i look at my legs but i see it when i wear the trousers, before they fitted me perfectly, now their to big. i want ALL my clothes to be too big, especially my jeggings, they make my legs look so fat i hate wearing them, but sooner or later my legs will look like thin silky poles in them, and i cannot wait.

so i guess today will turn out to be a major binge, but i will make up for it tomorrow by just eating a sandwich for lunch and some cucumber for dinner.

ciao ladies! xx

I've like done like, sooo well today like.

wohoo i managed 570 calories so far today, it was that apple crumble at school that killed me, and a sandwich which has 430 calories in, 430!!! anyway I'll burn some of that off tonight playing on the wii and doing some cardio from my Natalie cassidy DVD. and if i get hungry I'll eat some boiled celery sticks which only have 6 calories in an 8 inch stalk.

so i went on a site yesterday for some tips and tricks and i wrote down the ones that i can use since most of them were quite. hmm not for me whilst the others were for people who lived alone. you might know these already but I'll share them with you:

1, When you get a craving, count to 100 really slowly, and it might pass.

2, Eat breakfast and lunch or just breakfast, never eat dinner cause if you eat dinner

 3, you don't give your body enough time to burn off the calories.

4, Eat lots of celery ~ a negative cal food too
5, Do 50 sit ups every morning ~ it will raise your metabolism and make you more motivated to do things throughout the day.
6, Drink one glass of water every hour
7, Let yourself binge once a week. and ONLY ONCE.
8,Once a week treat yourself. take a bubble bath..listen to relaxing music, get a massage,
 give yourself a manicure, a facial..etc. anything to pamper yourself...to relax.
9, Stay cold.

hope you can use these.

i think i might plan my day so here goes:
read , watch hollyoaks, revise, revise, exercise, and watch TV.
hopefully all this will take my mind of off eating.

xoxo stay strong
ps thank you all my new followers!! i follow all who follow me :)

Just a lil update ma homiess

so i went up a little in my calories after my last blog i went up to 930 cals, but after a good 45 mins of high impact cardio exercising i'm back down ot the 700s which is good.

I think i post too much?? thoughts on that?

Forced.

Sorry i was forced to eat today :( don't ask why but i was. i was doing so well.

i counted my calories and I'm at 793 calories. its not bad but I'm a bit upset that i didn't stick to my plan of eating at half seven.
ahh well its still a low number.

I don't really have much to say today but its my dad's birthdayy!!!!! whooo! hes 45 now, whats sad is that he doesn't live with us since my parents split up. But I'm happy that today is his birthday and I'm giving him a gift :D

I also received my Chemistry exam results today ( quarter of my final GCSE) and it was a Foundation paper which means that i couldn't get higher than a C and i got a D which I'm really proud of because i was predicted and E SO yeah I'm proud :) But i need to really revise Maths and Science these days really really hard because its time i get over my hate for my teachers and just work hard, its the revision which does my head in because if i don't get it first time round i will still not get it second time round. so tonight i will watch my Maths watch CD and use BBC SCHOOLS to revise. hopefully i will learn something new today. wish me luck guys, i really wanna be good at those to subjects especially maths because its really important, its not really for my future since i want to be a copywriter but i might change my mind later on in life, but i am at an advantage since i am bi-lingual because i speak french, so my french GCSE will put me at an advantage :)

Enough about school. stay strong and you will be thin soon, really soon. just dream of that gap between your thighs. i really want it and i will get it. food will not take over my life.
xoxo

Dear Lent, i hope you are grateful for the calories i shall give you. Love Shareece

I'm not even going to talk/think about how i did today -_- sorry I'm not good enough guys. i really am.

So i love this Lent challenge and its sorta an inspiration for me to stop eating. so I'm giving up food for lent. for 40 days!!!! now now, not food altogether. but i will only eat after Hollyoaks, basically 7.30pm. and it'll be first and last meal of the day. I'm starting this tomorrow. I'm going to literally stare at my thinspo on my phone at school tomorrow if i feel hungry. the only i can eat i grapes during the day and liquids will be water and water with lemon juice for flavour.
You guys can join in too of you want! its a challenge for me and it inspires me so i hope it inspires you too. even if you're a non-believer its still a great thing to do!

stay strong xoxo

Approx 842 calories so far. YES!

that means no snacking tonight whilst watching 90210. FINGERS CROSSED I DO WELL TONIGHT.
xx

bad or good? happy Pancake Day! ha.

So i decided not to count calories today, it just gets really really annoying and i hate it. but this is what i ate.
one plantain: 300 cals
one cookie: dunno
2 sandwiches: dunno
but my two sandwiches killed it! i hope i didn't go over 900, that's my limit.

It's pancake day (shrove tuesday) here in the UK and probs America i don't know. Basically the day where you eat pancakes, its sort of a prep for Lent for catholics anyway. (I'm christian)
I'm so happy because i didn't have pancakes today since we've ran outta eggs. at least it means no huge amount of calories. But i am annoyed at seeing peoples status' on Facebook about their 'yummy' pancakes. it makes me hella hungry.
i think my last meal today will be.... i don't know. urghh i hate this but now i have to look on google about the calories i ate today because i rea;;y don't want to exceed my limit. I'll post those up later.

so here's my life. I've ran outta cred so i can't text the guy i told you about, lets call him 'Stubs' but when i went on stubs' facebook there was a date. 3rd march- Ilove you <3<3 which was two days before we met. i don't know what this means, i know its not about me but i hope he's not going to go out with me on the 'rebound' also he wrote a long thing about a relationship not working out and how much he loved her. and he hasn't texted me since i ran outta credit. (Sunday)
hmmmmm. oh well, boys this age are jerks. I'd rather have a serious relationship when I'm at uni( in 3 years time).

i need to get back into practising my religion. so i'm planning on reading my bible tonight. hopefully I'll understand it. and then i have another book by Horowitz or whatever to take my mind of off eating. so its all good.

thank you for reading babies. xoxo stay strong.

YUM. FATNESS.

More Followers Please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please share my blog with others :)

will make a proper update later xx

Well...

sorry i haven't been posting, too much happened over the weekend and i binged. alot! even though i was looking forward to weighing myself, i simply can't.

so my mum's party went pretty well and i went to a youth place and managed to meet this boy, my friends brother who I've only just met, since i was at a sleepover i told my friends and he said that he thought i was fit and i even have his number, but he's a year younger than me, if it was ice versa i wouldn't mind. but yeah it doesn't matter. the thing is that i don't have a good experience with boys, a lot of boys like me not to sound vain but i just dunno what to do. we've been texting alot, until i just ran outta cred and out about 3 unhappy faces and all he could say was oh okay its alright. hmmmm....
its going to be very awkward at the youth thing next week, very. i don't know if I'll be able to talk to him. but i need credit. BADLY. maybe I'm falling too hard for someone whom i don't even know, i am very known for falling too hard to boys. urghh. i might be able to persuade my dad to buy me credit. hopefully.
but enough about him.
the youth thing is next week Saturday, and by then i have to be very thin. so all this week IBM planning to only eat either lunch at school or dinner at home, it depends and then have water for the rest of the day, that will make me lose a lot by then. I'm feeling very paranoid around boys i like because of my fat and huge gap in the side of my teeth. ew its so big and gross i might need braces to fix that.

anywhooo this has been quite long. hope you've had a great weekend and i shall post again tomorrow.
bye bye hunnypie xxx

Sleeping stops you eating.

So i only just woke up and its 2.32pm (UK time) i just ate 4 Philadelphia sandwiches which is baaaaaad, ( 572 calories in total) but the good thing is that since i ate late, i might be hungry again later and i will just have some celery sticks then go to bed. so 572 + some celery won't be a bad total for the day. if i was to eat more then woweeeee that would be bad.

I didn't go school today, watching skins last night and i wasn't able to wake up this morning so i told my mum i had a headache, i hate lying to her so much!
so yeah a day at home, not a lot i can really talk about.

i might have an update later but for now. byebye sweetipiesss xx

My life is full of... stuff.

i took my diet pill late today so i ended being so hungry i had breakfast. i miss those days when i couldn't eat breakfast because i just found eating in the morning makes me feel unwell.
for brekkie i had white bread with Philadelphia soft cheese
and then at school at lunch i had a cheese panini
i feel super hungry you cannot believe it, i wish i took my pill earlier.
i think i might binge. i mean i really want that pasta with may but i cannot deal with my disappointment later.
in total i had 371 calories and if i have my pasta with mayo it'll be around 400 cals or lower, meaning a total of 700 and something. hmm its not that bad i guess, and it will be my last meal of t'day.
but i was hoping for 500 cals or lower. urghhh why cant all foods just have 1 calorie!

on Saturday i have a party that I'm going to cause of my mums business plan whatever. and there will be a lot of people and a lot of food. so i possible can;t avoid overeating. but I'm happy because I've gone three days with eating lower than 900 cals and i feel good casue i'm thinning. ummm what should i do.
i do not purge. i tried once and it worked but its an awful feeling. yuck. so i could maybe eat super low tommorow and then eating shitty fatty food on Saturday and then do my first ever fast on Sunday. that is if my mum decides that we go straight home after church. omg my first fast i hope i have willpower.

I'm also hoping on stealing a book from my school library, that should take my mind of off eating. hopefully. and the diet pill works wonders! apart from the dehydration and bad breath.
this was oh so long.
stay strong ladies xx

"And everythings cool as long as I'm getting thinner"

song- the fear- lily Allen

I'll just start with the numbers alright?

breakfast; diet pill = 0 calories

lunchtime; 1 sl cheese pizza = 230 calories

                 small kit kat; 90 calories

total: 320 calories.

That pizza killed me. i would have gotten a lower if i didn't get tempted today, the pizza was right in front of me. and it was free. so why not? its only one slice right. right. lol you thought i would have said wrong. but no it was only a slice. my friend then offered me a kit kat and i only had one finger of it but i couldn't find the approx calorie for one finger so i counted it as a normal two fingered kit kat.

so my calorie intake today is 500 calories or lower. i was thinking 400 but it would be impossible for me for today.

can i be a bitch?

OK so theres this girl in my year and she's the prettiest girl in our year and all the boys fancy her. ALL. so basically a couple of these guys were in my English class and they sit behind me and every time something happened one of them would just. urghh say something so cocky and annoying. you couldn't tell him to shut up because he'll just say something else utterly annoying. now i might be wrong but i think that white boys prefer white girls, and no its not racist, but the fact that me and my friend are black and he's only ever been horrible to black girls really does my heading! he's not a racist i know for sure he isn't but its all about preference right? i mean i know that there are a couple of white boys who would date a black girl but this is teenage years we're talking about. vain slags and shallow boys and bullies, geeks etc. i just wish we lived in an equal world. equal school. where... i dunno but i just wished things weren't like that. maybe these guys have a bad view on black girls or something like that but yeah, its not like we're not pretty. it just annoys me really.

so i might have a sandwich later on with Philadelphia cheese. YUM! brown bread used of course. i hate how these diet pills give you bad breath because your constantly dehydrated with them so you have to drink water and that stops you eating. hate the feeling.
but I'm not going to be miserable as i have had a great day today. me and my friend got back at that boy anyway because we put Vaseline all over his uniform blazer without him noticing. haha that'll teach the TWAT.

ahh lifee... so many ups, so many downs and so many inbetweens. but a smile can make it better :) so smile...... NOW. go on, exercise those muscles on your face and smile or grin. just do it. you'll feel much better. take a deep breath in your nose and out your mouth and smile. ..................

that's it. now you're slightly better. i hope :)

here's some thinspo to make smile again :D

Stay strong xx

Update (read last post first)

Heyyaaaa, ok so i just had my last meal. i'm in a sticky situation because i just had 2 spoons of creme brulee but i'm not going to count that. its only two spoons and even if i do count it, it will not affect my total calorie amount too much. but i did have;

2 slices of edam cheese; 66 cals

so heres the TOTAL TOTAL of everything i ate today-

301 calories. 301. 301... wow. i did so well
one oreo, 2 spoons of creme brulee, 2 slices of cheese. weirdly enough i feel full. its really strange, i mean the first day i started the diet pills it really didn't work as much as i wanted it to. i was hungry. today i'm hardly hungry. i mean. hey world. I'M FULL after eating just that...less. wow. the thing about these pills is that they make you hella thirsty, being thirsty means i drink water, drinking water means that my body feels full?
whatever it is i'm happy. I'm thinning. i'm not the depressing ana. I'm actually quite a happy person who is just not happy inside the fat in their body. i mean... i might have an EDNO i dunno. because its not like i want to be anorexic, its deadly. it kills. this was a kick in the backside for me, my destination is quick thinness. but when i'm thin enough i will work to keep it that way and start being healthy again. hopefully or i might just continue this diet of mine every now and again. urghh its too complicated! we'll just keep it simple shall we?
me want thin, once me gets thin, me wants healthy but still thin :D

Sorry i went on a bit but i just wanted to make that clear for you all :)
thanks for reading. stay strong xx

ps i know that no one wants to be anorexic, ana just reels you in i know. maybe ana is reeling me in. but i will be strong and be halfway reeled in and reel back out again. thats the best way forward :)

Didn't binge at school. woweee

I am so happy today, now i don't know anything about St Davids day but i think it brought me luck today. i didn't binge at school. maybe because of my diet pill but i dunno.

so here's the list;

Breakfast: one Oreo- 55 cals

lunch; Nothing

home time: 3 Madeira slices; 90 cals

Total: 145 :D

i dunno how i managed. but there is a downside , my mum went shopping today and bought loads of food like coleslaw which is very high in calories etc etc. But i will have my willpower.

hmm i think today my target calorie intake will be 300 cals. so i might have a sandwich or something for dinner. But i am so happy.

**
My hair did catch some attention :)
so there is nothing new in my life atm apart from that and my mums cousin died so she's kinda upset and i hate to say this but it hasn't really affected me since i don't know him but i hate seeing my mum upset. I'm sure all of you hate seeing your mums upset. They do everything for you. honour them, don't be a fucking bitch to them like many chavs in this country.

i might have an update later on but i dunno

love you all stay strong xx

Shabooooyaaa baby!

sha booya, sha-sha- shabooya lose the weight now!!!

ok so you can probably guess that i;ve done well today and i've gone down to 56.1kg as i said baby steps. i will get there.
the diet pills sorta worked, it says it stops you from being hungry and it did, it gave me some sotmack pains though but thats maybe the hunger pains :) i'm happy, i nearly went over my limit because my mum made my faveruite food: creamy steak with veggies and rice- YUM
but whats yummer is my body to be. so iwent outta town today and didn't go school because of it, and normally when me and my mother go outta town we stop y Burger King to get something on our way back. but i said NO. i have the willpower i know i do now. i can't believe i managed to stop myself from going in there. woweeee am i happy!
i was thinspired today in the train, this blonde girl was wearing skinny jeans and she looked so damn skinny and beautiful. my future legs i told myself.

i now officially have two followers! thank you guys so much for the support. don't forget to e-mail me as i want a buddy!

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So tomorrow is my first day back at school, i had my hair done the other day and its longer that before, i caught a lotta boys attention after that. so tomorrow i wanna go to school with a BANG; my new hair, new style and new mysterious attitude. thats what gets the guys going.

tomorrow:

breakfast; diet pill

lunch: water, water water and maybe a cup of grapes

dinner: some more grapes and water


stay strong skinnies! xx

why!?

Do i have to be so friking made to eat, why is it that when i'm bored i have to go into the kitchen and eat something, why is that when i am angry i have to eat something, why is it that when i eat i can feel the fat isnide me. why did i break my fast?!!!! >;(

i'm so mad you cannot believe it, weirdly enough after church i went over to my mates house, her whole family eat a lot so i was made to eat soooo much!
good thing is though that i i was 56.5kg and i'm now at 56.2kg. i know its not much of a difference, maybe not a difference at all but at least its bab steps.
i realized that since i haven't fasted before it will be impossible for me to suddenly fast for a whole week. my body wouldn't take it. so my plan is;
starting from Monday i shall start afresh. i love the idea if thinspo around the house but since i live with my family its never gonna happen. I have thinspo on my phone which i can hide pretty well. but i need more. any suggestions?

so school starts on monday and i'm all set, i think its easier to restrict pn a school day. and of course since i'm starting on those die pills my mum brought. i'm sooooo excited. This new week i shall drop the pounds off easy with those pills. the only problem is i have to make sure my mum doesn't notice i've taken some. even if she does she wouldn't ever think it was me. so i'm leaving on a positive note. i haven't done well today, but on Monday. the weightloss truly begins and i will stick to it.

byebye honniepies! xxx

yayyy!

Ok so i managed to liquid fast all day yesterday and today :)))))) so i weighed myself and I'm now at 55kg, not good enough for me though as i know I'll put it back on after tonight eating out with my family and friends. but surely after that i will liquid fast again. this means that my dream of losing a lot of weight before school has been shattered :(

but the good thing is that my mum bought some weight loss pills that stop you from being hungry!!! its my lucky day! so she's starting these pills on Monday when school starts and you should take one a day. hopefully if i take these pills too i won't be hungry at school, so I'll miss lunch at school. I'll only have water for dinner and no breakfast :D this sorta excites me. But I've never taken diet pills before so i am a bit scared if it has side effects. especially since my mum ordered them online.

but i shall leave on a positive note. no hunger at school anymore. no sitting there trying so hard to obtain myself from eating. hahah i shall sit there and watch all my friends scoff down their food and I'll be laughing cause I'm thinning :)

anyhow, I'm wearing a  dress tonight and heels, this will be the highlight of my week, just going out having fun really. as I've wasted some of this half term. but officially after this i will become a loner, every time i go out I'm forced to eat. and it will be rude to not eat when being served at someone else's home. not to sound sad but my mum taught me a lot of manners lol. If i don't go out anymore i can stop myself from eating stupid calories. the hunger pains are kicking in and so is my happiness. i shall be thin :)

Stay Strong Thinny Minnies xxx

From good to horrible

Ok so my day started off good, i went to hospital for an appointment and weighed myself. i hate how i don't have a scale at home and i have to use my mates'
i was 56kg- which means i didn't put anything on or off. i hate how i control things. one minute i'm doing well good and the next something comes up and i have to eat. DAMN.
so i started off with:

breakfast: a glass of water

lunch: a peach smoothie

doing well so far? not anymore homie!

dinner: beans on toast, another smoothie, brioche, pepsi, indian tonic water etc etc.
i didn't even wanna count those calories cause i know i went over my plan calorie amount (600 cals)
i'm hoping that once i get into the habit of only 600 cals i shall go lower. i must be 100lbs. MUST.
please follow me guys :) and email me as i want an ana buddy: shareecebaby@gmail.com
i love you all even though i only have one follower (myself)

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so i made a plan. since on firday i'm going out to an indian restaurant i KNOW i will eat a lot. but i'm sure that if i do a liquid fast till then and then a liquid fast soon after friday i'll make up for it? i need to lose weight before the end of this half term. my legs are hummongus. everyone knows and comments on them. even my family.

stay stron thinny minnies! xx

Well hello there!

hello, i cannot believe that i made this blog, so i decided to make my first entry or whatever you call it. telling you a bit about me.
my name is shareece I'm 15 years old
i live with my mum and two sisters
i go to school (haha well you'd never have guessed right?)
this is my dream - THIN
i currently weigh 56kg- i know its a lot!
i want to go down to 49gk and lower and lower and lower
i want to be a business woman, in my thinny minny office with thinny minny staff
I live in the UK
I'm single and I'm straight

i shall do whatever to be thin, its kinda hard since i live with a family of big eaters! i even weigh and look more fatter than my older sister! now come on, you're supposed to weigh less than your elders.

and that's me, i hope you like me for who i am! see you later thinnies!
Stay Strong xx